I can't take it anymore.

I feel lousy.
I don't wanna be me.
I feel lousy.
I hate myself.
I dont wanna be me.
I feel lousy.
I wanna die.
I DONT WANNA BE ME !

Well, everything changed today in CLE. First, caitlan told me to talk less. Okay, I decided, i shall talk less. Then, we changed places. I changed too. I FEEL LOUSY. I dont think the seating arrangement thing is working. It sounds kinda mean, i know, to those who put in so much effort for the seating arrangement. I'm not saying it outta my own preference. I am saying that its not that good for the people who are sitting sideways. They have to strain their eyes and necks to see the board. I like the arrangement cause its very pretty and fun, but its not gonna work. When we try to copy stuff from the board, we have to turn + lift our heads. Sooner or later, our necks will break. It's not outta my own preference, i dont sit sideways. ( at least, not after the change of the seating arrangement. I like sitting with huixuan. Shes very nice and she helps me with my work. Do you know that my neck is aching every single day ? I'm not speaking for myself. I'm just speaking for people who sit at the sides. Do you know that i can only see half the board when i was sitting at the corner ? I bet candace cant even see half. I think that the seating arrangement is GREAT, i mean it. It's fun and its very pretty. But it's also very difficult to do group work too. In the past, the group work people only have to turn their chairs and voila ! we're in a group ! Now, we have to shift here shift there de, and we cant get an even number for the group, thats why one person will feel very left out. I know its not up to me to make a decision, im just voicing out my concerns. Im not criticising anyone, im just voicing out my opinions. I complained of not able to see the board, so they changed my place. I feel lonely without huixuan beside me though.. Now ams took my old seat. I bet she cant see the board too == its not due to my eyes, its due the the angle -.- I really think that we could use this arrangement after exams, but this period is very important to me now. I'm scared I dont score well, and the distribution is uneven. I have 4 or 5 heads in front of me, and if we use the previous arrangement, the most number of heads is only 3. argh